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Friday, August 31, 2007
today very sad... teacher's day yet i cant go back to my sec skool to meet my teachers.... haiz.... got skool... and it ended at 1 sia... after tat i think too late alrdy... all teachers left skool alrdy.. but at least i have learnt something in skool.. manage to do some revision lo... this few days i am really very stressed up alrdy.. and feeling really really down... something hit me real hard.... i tot it was de end alrdy.... but it is starting to happen again.... argh... this is really torturous... i hate it... y others is so happy and y am i not?.. perhaps this is my life la... wo de ming zhong zhu ding.. i am bound to face all this problems... maybe these things can make a become more hard hearted... and not so soft hearted and symatatic to ppl.... cant spell.. while some ppl just don know wat had really hit me and happened to me... now starting to blame me for showing my black face my frens.. u all think i wan to do this is it?.. i cant wear a mask on my face and pretend nth had happened... always smiling... i am really sad... i am not strong to always show others de happy side of me... and things just kept pilling up on me.. u all r just lucky i din explode out... if not it is not onli de black face u been seeing.. it would be worst... y cant u be more understanding to ppl.. onli thinking abt ppl need treating u good.. giving u de happy and smiley face all de time... i have emotions too... i am a human.. 1 day i might just break down and cry... i don wanna continue le... i am really really........
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Wednesday, August 29, 2007
my mood have really been bad.. so much things happened.. though i must understand tat not everyone is fortunate... but y must i be de less fortunate... really damn stressed up... really bad.. i am in mix feelings.. i don know wat to do.. i am lost really lost.. i think my mood is really bad these days.. getting really worked up even with the slightest problem.. really cant control myself.. i got no fren to confide to.. i am really lost.. i really need a listening ear... can someone be kind enough to kai dao me and let me tempory stay away from my troubles? i am really lost... need someone to talk to.. i am really desperate... gosh... mood is really good.. don wanna continue anymore..
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Tuesday, August 28, 2007
very long nv blog le... rather busy i guess... busy revising for exams... my accounts is getting better at least... but not up to perfection yet.. haha.. really must try very hard to score well in my coming exams... becoz it is counted in my GPA.... and if fail this module.. i have to repeat de module again sia... arggg..... i must pass... today something happened.... make me think tat i got a really bad father sia..... very sad... how come my father cannot be like my fren's father?... love me more... treat me better.... Y? y? haiz... don compare la... ren bi ren qi si ren la..... haiz.... but i am very sad.... y i don have a better father?? argg.... gtg le... go do my revision le...
brakes applied at |9:17 PM|